I’m in the mood for something different.
I’ve got dark circles under my eyes and my face lacks color, but I don’t want to discuss ways to freshen up my beauty routine. I’m wearing clothing, but I don’t want to tell you how to “get the look.” Do you crave something more like I do? Superficiality is fun and lord knows there’s a place for it in bloggerdom (i.e. my Pinterest feed!), but I find myself seeking more. What, though? Honesty? Depth? Reality? Community? Connections? Heart? Sincerity? Grit? Creativity? All of those things, and probably more. Let’s start with honesty.
I started this blog as more of a fashion blog, and mostly all I’d do was outfit posts. That no longer is my main inspiration. Fashion, honestly, is not as important as it casts itself to be. Fashion is only money. Style is a word I like better, because it comes from within. It’s a way of doing things.
This blog documents how I style my life. Every photo and word I choose to include, cut, or edit reflects how I wish to be perceived. Isn’t that strange? Or is it just something we do in the year 2014, and I should just get over it? But I bring it up because obviously the full picture of my life doesn’t look like my blog. My house is mostly always a mess. There is old food particles in my sink drain. There’s hair that I’ve shed on every floor in every room (I have tons of hair and I’ve accepted this as a fact of life). I live in a suburban one-highway town filled with strip malls and chain stores. I have a very strict budget I stick to, and not a ton of that is allocated to new clothing. I spend most of my time with my family, not at all the cool, new “it” places to go. Just so you know.
The big attraction to bloggers has been the mystique and promise of a much more glamorous (and romanticized) life. I’m 100 percent guilty of this from both the side of the blogger and the side of the consumer. It’s so easy to romanticize things. I’m probably doing it right now. However, I won’t stop doing it. My blog is an outlet for my creativity, and part of that is seeking, finding, creating, and defining what I think is beautiful. Each post is a dream of how I’d like things to be, even when I’m confessing my truths.
“There’s no one thing that’s true. It’s all true.” -Ernest Hemingway
Even things that are fake inform us more about the truth. That is how the moments I stage and the thoughts I confess can coexist together. It’s all true.